My Cup Runneth Over

I wrote this about a year ago, but apparently I forgot to hit the publish button.....

The other day I had a woman ask if I would be trying for a fourth so I could "get my girl." This happens quite often when people find out I have three little boys. I am usually pretty baffled by this, especially since more often than not, another mother is asking me. My usual response is something like, "No, I think we are done." What I REALLY want to say is, "You're an asshole." That's not the way this works people.

When you sign up for the parenthood gig, you are signing up for a lot of unknowns, one of which is the sex of your child. This isn't some diner where you can just order off a menu of items - "Oh, I'll have a bouncing baby girl with a side of bright green eyes, and blond curls. And could you make sure she is extra sweet? None of that crying and tantrum crap. My system can't handle it." As my six-year-old so eloquently puts it, "You get what you get, and you don't throw a fit." When you become a parent, from the moment you know it is going to happen, or better yet when you are even thinking of becoming a parent, you should know that your job is to love and provide for your child. Period. You don't get go into saying "I want this, or I want that." You are being gifted a CHILD. Isn't that enough?


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