Letter #5

Dear Bill,

Fourteen years ago, you asked me to marry you. It was a pretty amazing night and I was really blown away. I knew it was coming, I mean after dating for 7 years one has to expect it. It was either that or I was getting let go really gently. I'm still in awe of all the effort you went to. You actually took the day off work! That alone was a shock. And then to think you spend much of the day in preparation for the evening.

We were so excited about the future. And it was pretty damn great. Although too short lived, and I'm sure you'd agree with me on that. For someone who was the very definition of a "planner," I'm guessing this was not in your foresight.


Here I sit fourteen years later.

Alone.

A widow.

How did we get here?

One minute you were putting on sunblock in the mudroom talking to me and the next time I saw you was 3 days later. At the mortuary. Lying in a casket fully clad in the cycling kit I had them dress you in. Like you had just finally finished your ride.

And what a beautiful ride it was.

You were so beautiful and what we had was so amazing. Thank you so much for choosing me.





Comments

  1. Addie's NanaOctober 26, 2016 at 10:54 AM

    Bri, This life turning on a dime is so very cruel. I love you Bri, Angi

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  2. UnknownOctober 26, 2016 at 11:22 AM

    Love you Bri......this should not be, but it is, and you are dealing with it the best you can, which is pretty damn awesome. Bill is so very proud! Love you, Mom

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